the worst/saddest christmas ever

what's happening to me?

why in a sudden motion everything falls for me?

i don't know if i should curse every bad thing that happens to me.. every now and then i feel like crying, crying that will make my tears fall into a river..

I know ive done a mistake. I know i'm wrong, i know i'm not prepare. My tears are falling because of the following shallow experiences that made a great impact to me:

1. i cry because of my grades. yes.. its my grades, its not that 'pasikat' ako or somethin' its just that hindi ko makilala ung sarili ko because of the status of my grades. yes, i admit i feel jealous. Who in this world wouldn't feel jealous? I swear, im jealous of my classmates that made it to the top. They are the highest, the most and the best. But 1 thing sum up in my mind. I must Stand up and LET GO.

2. i cry because my boyfriend didn't wish to be with me this coming holiday season. Too sad noh?! I was hoping he'll ask me to go out, but all my hopes turn to nothing. Still i wait for my last free day before Christmas..but still nothing. Oh God, do i ever need to feel this? Why did You permitted him to be with his friends than me? Oh my God i feel more crying.

I want to talk to God. I wanna ask Him. Is this a challenge? Passing this kind of challenge, i know my heart is crying. Lordl if im gonna surpass this challenge, im hoping for a peace of heart and mind, and im praying that there would be no jealousy in my heart so that i wouldn't feel it.

Today, im starting to stand again. I'm letting go the things happen to me. And im telling myself that if I came back, im giving my best to do what i can just to have the grades i've been working for. Im trying to pick up the broken pieces of me during the days that i wasn't myself. Although im not feeling that 'okay' with my boyfriend, im hoping for a peace of mind. Lord help me..

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Pasko.. kamusta ka na?

DECEMBER 12 2005

we had our first ever fondaeu party! and you know what? it was a blast!

On the menu, we had our:

* sauteed mushroom
* short breads (bought from Marks & Spencer) quite expensive huh?!
* garlic bread sticks
* lots of marshmallows
* Ciabata bread
* small potatoes
* wafer sticks! (stik-o)

and you have to dip them in either in cheese or in chocolate.. hungry?!

so far, that would be a celebration for the "exam-ender" and a "christmas class party", oh by the way, i was one of the person who prepares and cook the chocolate, and i tell you.. it was FUN! if i could only do that online, its for sure that you will like it! Promise!

Here are some of the photo i've taken

PARTY PIXIES


DECEMBER 14 2005

it was the very last test i have to take.. computer! and everything went ok, and even sir satuito.. he's such a smart guy..and that makes such cutey.. =) haha! we took the test online (so hi-tech). I got 32/50 not bad.. =)

Before we went downstairs, i told sir satuito the "plan" we planned before our class started. The plan is to tell him that Ms. Lopez is sending her greeting to him, unfortunately, he didn't smile at all! arghh! damn! we thought he's gonna smile, because all this time he did show that smile.. too bad! but anyhow, its fun telling him the message..=)

ive uploaded my newest pictures
new photos!

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classes opens

its our first day of classes.. arghh! I thought that they would change the date, kaya im hoping that someone will text me saying that our opening of classes has moved to Nov. 7 pero aun nga..
I arrived at CEU at around 7:30 and my class will start at 10am pa, kase i thought na traffic kaya umalis ako dito sa amin ng 6:30..hehe! is it obvious na excited din ako pumasok?! Jane was also there na rin together with Mark. A little talk tapos jane and I decided to go to the library, kase malamig dun chaka konti lang ung mga tao..heheh!

Its 10 am na! whoa! my friends are starting to arrive na, grabe i never thought na i missed them talaga! Hindi maubusan ng stories at chika..although hindi dumating ung first prof namin sa accounting, ok lang kase puro kami kwentuhan chaka tawanan para kaming hindi nagkita ng 1 year..

Around 11:30 na dumating ung 2nd Prof on English 16 (Technical Writing), she's kinda ok naman (i hope so..) then our prof on English 15a (World Lit) is also our prof last sem on Philippine Lit, kaya its really big ok for me, cook kasi nung prof na un! haha!

2 hours of vacant.. and we went to the lib for research kase may homeworks agad, hayy ang bilis talaga ng mga happenings, i thought introduction lang ng mga prof..

Last Subject.. NSTP! seems that there is no problem with the prof..cool din! lalake xa pero ok lang, kwela din! kaso hindi xa maubusan ng stories! haha!
well im praying and hoping that this sem would be a great for me.. at shempre hindi din pahirap..

Btw here is my *unofficial class card for the 1st semester of my 2nd Year:

* no grade at managament, its not final

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hassle day

i went to school this morning for the enrollment for the 2nd semester, i arrived there around 8am, and i was shocked because there is such a crowd already! i thought few people or i supposed it was our college only to have enrollment this day.. err! our college assistance is not that organized! ang tagal tagal nilang mag-start that's why naipon na ung mga tao outside the enrollment area. >_<

Nung we started to fall in line na, they told us that x-ray result will be needed for the enrollment, and we are not informed before about that so sabi namin hindi pa naman expired ung x-ray examination namin na pinasa this first sem of 2nd year, so they let us get our result at the clinic, at ung akin nawawala! paiyak na ako nun, i thought hindi na ako makakaenrol that day, buti nalang sinabi ni Jason na all 2nd HRM students are not required na to get x-ray.. whew! na-relieve ako nun..hayyy..

another problem na naman ung dumating, wala pa daw kaming grade sa managament, it means nag-sembreak ung prof namin without encoding our grades! errr! hassle! so aun! it takes for 25 minutes para lang makuha ung grades from the office..hayy.. its almost 11 na, and hershey is waiting for me at UST, shocks! 2 hours na xang andun..

when we arrived at cashier's office, grabe nanaman ung pila! (sori if was too exaggerated but its true, hassle 'tong araw na to) so i called hershey to come over to CEU, sunduin ko xa sa may Mercury Drug, aun nga, now naman when we came to school.. hindi naman siya pinapasok just because ang pwede lang pumasok sa campus that time is parent or brother/sister and i can't lie to them kase hindi naman kami obvious na magkapatid kami.. hayy too sad, i have no choice so i said to him na hintayin nya ako, maglaro muna siya sa computer shop or surf muna sa internet..

It was 2:45 when we finished paying at the cashier, and gutom na gutom na ako i haven't eaten my lunch para lang pumila.. im soo tired!
Pauwi na kami, sabi ko sa kanya kain kami sa SM fairview sa Tokyo Tokyo.. kaso sumakit ung tyan ko nung kumakain na kami, sabi nya baka dw may ulcer na ako, i can't eat talaga! sobrang tiring ung araw na to for me.. i have to rest, may lagnat nanaman ako.. =(

P.S i went to school this day na nilalagnat, kaya here's the consequence.. may lagnat ulit!

Here's my 2nd year 1st Sem grades:

English 13a (Philippine Lit.) -----1.25
English 14 (Speech) ------------- 1.75
HRM 4 (Basic Foods) ----------- 1.75
NSTP -------------------------- 1.25
P.E (Basic Swimming) ---------- 1.50
Philosophy --------------------- 1.25
Psychology --------------------- 1.25
Principles of Management ------ 1.25
Religion ------------------------ 1.50

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welcome me SEMBREAK!

after 5 months of stay in school, doing all those activities..

after surpassing 3 modes of exams..

after those late nights doing all the required assignments and reports..

after those early mornings of practice for presentations and plays..

at last.. welcome me.. SEMBREAK!

wohoooo! oh my god! at last i can now rest for a couple of weeks.. its just, i missed sleeping late and watching t.v all day and of course i really miss surfing the net, browsing some blogs and everything! hahah! ^_^

oh btw, these morning me and my wacky friendlies went to megamall, to celebrate our sembreak heheh! we ate at tokyo tokyo (tonkatsu yumyum! waaa! and red iced tea please!) then we headed to movie world to watch Deuce Bugalow but then sad to say, Oct 26 is its opening date.. errr! so we decided to stay up on Glicos and play all day.. hahah! ^_^ we rode the roller coaster, we sang all day with the videoke and play.. guess what?! we collected 300 tickets! whoa!

that was fun!

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trip to antipolo

August 19 - its the day.. pupunta kame ng antipolo for Leadership Training Seminar. Its for the officers of our college. Grabeh im kinda excited, pero kinakbhan din xe first time na um-attend ng dis kind of activity.. hayy.. We arrived there at around 9am na.. aun!

About naman ung sa room designation namin, we were 5 in the room, si ate april, ate clara, mari at everly.. masaya naman kame sa room, close na nga kme agad eh..

During lunchtime, puro talk lang ang ginawa namin, with the speakers na puno ng humor! nakakatawa sila sobra! heheh.. Tapos puro food din dun! non stop juice! hehe!

we have this group pala, we we're the "makati group" heheh, its because my ceu sa makati db?! aun! saya ng group namin! even though puro kalokohan kame lage..haha! By 7pm, nag socializing na kame, party til 10:30.. so much fun!


August 20 - the last day of our LTS.. guess what?! we had dis kind of Extra Challenge.. kakapagod pero fun! 2nd place pala kame!


i had a great time talaga! an experience na da best!

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WOFEX is a BLAST!

wohoo! yesterday.. our class went to World trade Center for The food Expo.. and guess what?! its relly fun! dming foods! =) its because madaming food samples.. you don't need to buy foods para makakain..just visit the stalls and may free foods na! pati drinks and even desserts! Ang saya namin! im with my friends.. kaya super kulet namin! oh btw, the evnt was featured yesterday at Unang Hirit in Channel 7

and there are some unusual foods, there is this aloe vera juice and rice juice, chocolate ecstacy, choco fountain, nuggets made from mushroom and soya and madami pa! we are on our chef's uniform kaya were so obvious na HRM students kame.. im going to post some of the pictures here the next time i update this.. =)

im at the library again.. as usual, checking my mail.. hehe
see yah!

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